1. |
Enter
01:48
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It starts again
This eerie feeling in my head
The unease spreads like a virus
I need to get this out
This pressure, this feeling
Something needs to release
I need to build something fruitful
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2. |
Running
04:53
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I can't stop thinking about it
The dread of tomorrow
I'm desperate to never feel like this again
I just need to run
Get out of this hole in my head
Sacrifice it all just for a glimpse
A taste of the life I yearn for
So I make up my mind
I get out, I get going, I go
And I don't stop running
Even when my feet are dragging
Even when my knees buckle
I just have to keep running
Because I can't stay like this anymore
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3. |
Open
03:19
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I'm wide open
I'm done playing this fucking game
I'm ready to let go of all the shit that brings me
To my knees
And even so, the guilt will never leave
But I guess I'll just have to deal with it
Because I can't lie to myself anymore
I won't lie to you anymore
I've always wanted to be selfish
In living life like this I'm miserable
Living for you, living through you
Instead of living for myself
I'm tired, I'm bored, I'm frozen in fear
I know what you'll say and I don't want to hear it
I'm wide open
I'm done playing this fucking game
I'm ready to let go of all the shit that brings me
To my knees
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4. |
Void
03:23
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Sinking back into the Void again
Floating, leaf-like, in this murky water
Arms stretched as if to catch the sunlight
Eyes burn, lungs expand and contract
I'm here again, my own little world
I'm here, my own little void
In wave forms
I'm stood here
Pressing my mind to other things
Hoping the water keeps me sane
Hoping the void is healing
unable to know certainty
But less afraid than before
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5. |
Knowing
04:19
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The lump in my throat returns
I can't help but want to cry
I never wanted it too be like this
I guess I should've thought about that
I guess I should have known
That you'd be you
and me being me
There's no in between
Only the death of what you built
What you made for me
I'm not the man you need
I'm a boy chasing his life
Two steps behind the man I'll never be
But I promise you I'm not wasting my time
I promise you I'm doing something worthwhile
You'll never understand or appreciate it
Just like I'll never understand or appreciate you
This is just something I have to do
It's my blood and soul screaming at me
Needing me to take this chance
I hope someday you'll know
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6. |
Exit
02:10
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The metronome stops
I'm home again
I'm here again
I'm me again
As much as I don't want to be
But this won't be the end
I'll keep building, running, knowing
Until I can't anymore
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Iōhannēs North Carolina
Iōhannēs was a project born out of a need to express and expel the darker parts of the mind. In doing so, the project eventually lost form and traction, and has since been retired. I am still proud of the work, but ultimately the job was done, and the time had come to move on. Thank you to everyone who still cares about this little bedroom project. Much love. ... more
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